Posted in advice, Feel Good Everyday

Things That Make Me Tick !

I have to admit that with the sunshine that plagued June and July now being long gone, it can be difficult to get motivated.

In light of that, I thought writing a post on what personally gets me refreshed and feeling positive!

A Night Out on the Town

Having stuff to look forward to is a real pick-me-up! Whether it’s staying in with the gals to chat about life and watch movies or going out, having a light at the end of the tunnel can make the week worthwhile.

Personally, coming downstairs in my student accommodation to see a crowd of familiar and friendly faces is all I need to lift my mood.

…Even if it does end in some questionably drunk photos uploaded to Facebook!

Exercise!

Exercise your body to exercise those demons – see what I did there, funny right? But it’s true. Whenever I’m in a rut, popping my trainers on and pumping the music for a jog down the canal or a gym session always boosts my mood.

This is always the best way to start my day and means that I’m ready for whatever comes my way. Essays? No sweat! Reading? Hand me the books!

After all, your  body loves releasing them endorphin’s even if you can’t walk the next day…

Discuss It 

Talk about it! This is what I do whenever I have writers block. Chatting to a friend about a plot for a story or theme for an essay can help cement what you want to do.

So, jump those hurdles together.

Conclusion

That’s it for today ladies and gentlemen! Don’t worry, I’ll be back same time tomorrow with more things to talk about!

I think I might start doing posts on a day in my life-esque thing which might be good. Come with me on walks, chores and days out!

Ciao for now!

E xxx

 

 

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Posted in advice, Feel Good Everyday

Confidence: An Open Letter to my Sixteen-Year-Old Self

We’ve all dealt with the crippling effects of low self-esteem in life at some point. It’s a given when you’re growing up – what with all the hormones and anxieties flying about.

For someone whose dealt with panic attacks and self-image problems in the past, I think for me confidence was something I really needed in order to survive my adolescent years. Which is why I’m writing this open letter to my younger self, to assure her that yes, life is difficult but loving yourself isn’t necessarily a bad thing.

So, what does the word mean to me?

My own personal definition of the word is very simple: feeling comfortable in your own skin. Such a simple concept in theory but in reality, it’s one of the most difficult things to put into practice.

When I was sixteen, I was a mess. Literally. I couldn’t speak to boys, I felt undervalued and like a waste of space in my friendship groups and seriously couldn’t understand why anyone else would want to socialise with me.

I would look around and see all these other people with their heads held high, being themselves and be in awe of them. How did they do it? Weren’t they terrified that what made them who they were wasn’t good enough?

My anxiety got so bad that I remember walking down the road, unable to raise my head and my breathing becoming more and more erratic.

Once, I was catcalled from a car by a group of twenty something boys. It was summertime and I was wearing a skater skirt and thin tights. I was completely fine in what I was wearing, looking back on it. However, at the time I was so embarrassed that I remember running home and changing.

And all because I didn’t have an ounce of self-confidence.

I now look back on my younger self and wish I could go back and shake her by the shoulders. Sixteen-year-old me wasn’t anywhere near all the things she thought she was and could have done so much more with her time and avoided so many problems had she simply grounded herself and said, “I have so much going for myself and so much to come.”

I also wish she’d have treated herself to a bubble bath every once in a while. Because honestly, feeling good is about loving all of you- the inside and the out.

Another thing I would have done would have been to introduce her to one of my favourite quotes a lot earlier on. I can’t quite remember where I first saw it. Had it been on a class wall as a poster? Or maybe I read it in a book? Wherever it was, it helps me to face up to my problems in time of need.

“No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”

Eleanor Roosevelt is the author of that saying, and rightly so. People can only make you feel low about yourself if you let them. Remember Mini-Me that the persona you put out in the world is the one that’s going to be received.

If you come across as submissive and full of self-loathing then sooner or later someone’s going to take advantage of that and walk all over you.

But- if you stand up tall, slick on some red lipstick and walk with an air of confidence. Well, then the whole worlds your oyster. I mean look at how far we’ve come in those four years!

So, chin up- it only goes up from here.

Speak soon,

E x

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Posted in Feel Good Everyday

Feel Good Everyday Movement

Okay so this is quite an important post to me so please please please take the time to read this.

Like I said in my previous post life has been treating me kinda crappy and I have had enough of it!

Depression is not a fun thing to slip into and it feels like there are a hundred and one things to worry, be sad, get traumatised and mull over.happy

And I ask this, why must we only focus on the core bad things that happen in our lives?! Why do we have to be upset, why is appearing perfect online with a removed persona seen as cool or impressive?

So I want to start a new movement here on my blog- others can join in if you want but I propose that everyday you try to look for something that makes you smile and keep a tally. I also want to strive to put together a collection of posts following this one to show exactly what makes me happy!

I got this idea from a friend of mine called Kerry. She has a facebook page (which I shall link in a mo) which is all about loving yourself and being well.

She actually caught me on a bad day and I told her all the mumbo jumble that had been going on and she actually really helped me by sending me links to things and giving me the tip to keep a journal for when I really want to rant and doing a three step process to get things out, reflect and focus on the positives.

I originally thought that this blog would be my outlet but even I am not completely comfortable with telling the internet my entire story hehe. But yes, she listened, talked things through with me and instead of walking away feeling guilty for putting the burden of my problems on someone else/ the fear that it would somehow get back to someone I knew – instead I felt motivated to what she told me to do.

Okay here is the link:

https://www.facebook.com/kduffyarbonne/?fref=ts

Please, please take the time to watch her videos and listen to her message. Also, she really wants to hit 300 likes on her page before she reaches her 30th birthday and although she doesn’t know I’m doing this I would really love to surprise her!

yayAnyway, this was just the introduction to my new segment here on my blog inspired by Kerry and her brilliant message. I’m going to start every post for Feel Good Everyday with a song lyric that I’m currently loving and which has a positive message.

Comment below if you want to turn this into a tag and have a go too or even if you wish to suggest a song!

Sorry that this was long hehe 😀

-E

 

Posted in poetry

Emotional People Are a Blessing in Disguise

It’s easy to be the weakest link

You’re the open book

You have no tricks up your sleeves

Like these other people thieving

Hearts and secrets

Capitalising from gossip

And false promises.

And yet in the end

We’re the ones they turn too.

The uh-oh I was an idiot to let them go.

We’re not cheaters.

Not con artists.

Plain sailing

Simple creatures

So don’t use sensitivity as an insult

Because it’s incredibly brave

To bare it all to the world.

 

-E

P.S. Listen to this if you’re feeling a bit down, because it takes courage to share your thoughts 🙂

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Diary Entry~ 29th June

Hey guys, today has been a bit of a roller coaster of emotions, to be completely unoriginal. As I’m writing this I am still in my dressing gown, my rooms a tip and I have achieved next to nothing today.

As an update, I finally talked to Alex today and cleared the air. We talked a lot (actually technically I’m still on Skype with him whilst writing this entry) and now we understand each other.

There were some tears but I’m feeling a lot better about everything. I haven’t had a panic attack today which is good, but I am still unable to sleep.

Uuuuugh my to- do list is ever growing though!

Things Esther has to do today:

  • Write a chapter on Wattpad.
  • Gardening
  • Clean my room
  • Organise my clothes
  • Write a poem on this blog
  • Make dinner
  • Put the washing out
  • Take a bubble bath
  • Sort out feet for prom
  • Wear a face mask
  • Jog
  • Read
  • Draft out new story on Wattpad
  • Draft  out following chapters
  • Make hair appointment.
  • Finish Future Learn course.
  • List of top favourite animes to watch!

Something tells me I’m going to stuggle getting all this done today but oh well. I think some other posts on this blog other than these entries and poetry will probably include essays on writers and historical information as well as book reviews….

I just need to keep myself busy!

Anyway if I get my chapter out today at the very least I’ll feel good about things. Lets get motivaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaated!

Lots of love and jelly tots,

E

xxx