Posted in Diary Entry, life update

Hi Again! Long Time No See

Hi there blog world,

It’s been a long time no see so I just thought I would give you a little update on how university life was going.

I have just finished my January exams and to be honest today I feel sooooo tired, all those nights at Hallward Library Β have hopefully paid off but even if things don’t go as planned I know I did the best I could have.

Life has been errr interesting to say the least. I hope that with the new term my blogging will start becoming more and more regular. To be honest life is just very very busy at the moment.

Last night was odd….. it was a very bad night actually. I don’t know if I should be so honest online but I have come to the conclusion that wine and me do not mix well. Wine is normally the cheapest and nicest thing to drink on a night out at prinks but lately it just seems to turn me weepy and a little bitchy too.

But anyway, the night itself. It all started off nice and there was a lot of dancing involved. Everyone got to see my terrible dad dancing- and the crab dance move was even incorporated at one point. But then the evening began to spiral. Thwinee wine really does heighten anxieties I think and I just remember starting to feel very upset.

I was a bit of a party pooper. But oh well, it’s just the thing about student accommodation and being in university in general is that you rarely have any time to yourself. My flat is very social and whilst it’s lovely 99.99% of the time. Sometimes it can become claustrophobic when you just want to be alone and wallow in your crazy emotions rather than be surrounded by fifty people.

The night ended with an argument, a walk at 2 ‘o’ clock in the morning and me falling asleep at 6am. Charming, right?

But yes, today has been pretty weird in itself and also very short. I went for a walk to the canal on my own and it pretty much hammered down with rain. But it was nice to get away from everything on my own and I even called my dad up and caught him up on my life.

Now, I am about to go out to see a movie with my flat mates and friends. It’s the one with James Macavoy who is just soooooo good looking aaaaahhhhh. But yes I may write a review on that when I get back or else I shall do so tomorrow.

Monday is the first day of term so I am very much trying to enjoy this time relaxing before getting back into that routine. I am also attempting to find a new job rather than waitressing, just because the hours are really screwing up my body clock and I’m just constantly tired all the time.

more wine.jpgI am very lucky to have such lovely people around me though. As I sit here writing this I’m in the kitchen with Naveedh, Kumar and Molly. Molly is who I went on the walk with last night and to be honest it was really nice to have such a frank and honest conversation. Yes, they really are a lovely bunch and I’ll be sad next year when we’re all apart, although I will still have Molly and the rest of them will just be across the road.

Anyway, the conclusion to this post is that life is weird, unis weird, feelings are weird, and I- I am very very weird.

See you,

E

Posted in poetry

Harmless Love and Razor Hearts

My thoughts are open

My heart is warm

Deceit and superstition

Are slowly being drained away

Like a poison that once festered

Slowly it seeps out.

Love is harmless, questionable and complicated.

But it’s love at the end of the day

And some days I am hard as a rock

Stubborn, irritable and like a girl crying wolf

But others, more often now

I lead with my heart and my feelings

Not so headstrong

But still strong enough to push the demons away

In return for your millionaire smile

Which is priceless to me

So forget the pointy shards of glass that dig into you

Because they are made of ice

And you melt them with a kiss.

-E

 

Posted in poetry

Emotional People Are a Blessing in Disguise

It’s easy to be the weakest link

You’re the open book

You have no tricks up your sleeves

Like these other people thieving

Hearts and secrets

Capitalising from gossip

And false promises.

And yet in the end

We’re the ones they turn too.

The uh-oh I was an idiot to let them go.

We’re not cheaters.

Not con artists.

Plain sailing

Simple creatures

So don’t use sensitivity as an insult

Because it’s incredibly brave

To bare it all to the world.

 

-E

P.S. Listen to this if you’re feeling a bit down, because it takes courage to share your thoughts πŸ™‚